Five million books on how to get your shit together. Every day 100 more hit the store shelves. Bloggers making a living by convincing you they can get you back on track! Everywhere you look–reinvent, transform, go deeper.
Of course I exaggerate. Creative license.
But, my head is spinning.
The perennial, “What do you do?” What are you doing with your life?
Hard to explain that you’re a freelance writer–getting paid by word count. Is it a rewarding living? Hard to answer that. Satisfying? Writing is what I love but the act of writing for money often keeps me from writing what I want to write. Door slams. Prospective customer walking away.
Or so I would have me believe.
My theme this year is about Going Deeper and looking at the questions we need to ask in our lives. An article I read this morning by Erika Napoletano triggered some deep thinking! She’s a great, kick-ass, in your face writer, in case you don’t know her. And, you should.
Her most recent article, Where Do I Begin? has this 58-year-old thinking she needs to start over. Again.
Do I do what I should do or do I do what my heart tells me to do?
Erika’s question is the question we all need to ask ourselves. Often.
The heart knows. When we start getting all logical and Adult-like, we are often disconnecting from our heart and our body. The brain is a great thing as is thinking, I’m not knocking rational thought. It keeps us from stepping off the cliff or telling our boss to F— Off. But, it’s the body, the heart, the breath that have the power to truly lead us.
How does one begin? Where to start?
Me? I got out the big pad and the marker and starting writing. Black for the Vision. Red for more ‘how I want to feel’ stuff.
The feelings are where I think the focus should be. What do I do with my life that will generate these feelings? It’s a fill-in-the-blank: What will make me feel ____________?
Bloggers and writers come in different flavors. There are the Niche writers and the I-can-write-about-it-all folks. I’m not sure we can really write about everything, successfully. I know my focus has been…unfocused. I’ve been trying to write a little of everything and it’s challenging. The problem
is was that I have been reluctant to step up and step out. To write about the things that hold the most interest for me.
Can one make a living writing about vaginas and sexual health? About a woman’s ability to have an orgasm as not just sexual satisfaction but as deep energetic connections with partner, creativity and the universe? About older women as vital forces in their own right?
I’ve been writing small here and trying to make a bigger, dollar-driven splash writing about….anything someone wanted to pay me to write.
Visualize the Pause button here.
This is the answer. If it’s that simple. Watch it. And, if you don’t love Ze Frank, I’ll give you your money back.
Your turn! Is what you’re doing today going to make you feel the way you want to feel about yourself and your life?